So last night I got to hang out with some of my friends that I haven’t seen since before break, and it was so much fun. We had a big group hanging out and it was really great and even though everyone was casually drinking I didn’t feel left out and still had a blast. I know it’ll be a while before I can drink again (thanks Vicodin!) and I’m fine with that. The thing that sucks is that the Vicodin made me feel nauseous, so I had to leave in a rush so I wouldn’t get sick. The only person not drinking was the only one who ended up sick last night. Ugh, so annoying.

Sorry, just needed to get that out. Just ten more minutes and I can take more meds and go to sleep.

So at some point last semester I was watching a True Life marathon on MTV, and an episode came on entitled “True Life: I’m Allergic to Everything.” This was about six months after my mysterious allergic reactions began. There was a girl in the episode whose symptoms were very similar to my own. She was finally diagnosed and I thought to myself, “I should ask my doctor about that.” At the time I was being tested for everything under the sun. This morning I saw a new allergist that my local allergist had referred me to, and after an appointment that lasted almost three hours, I FINALLY got a working diagnosis, which basically means “This is what we think is wrong, and how we’re going to treat it, but we’re going to keep looking just in case it’s actually something else.” And, of course, it was the same diagnosis as the girl from True Life. Ironic? I think so. My doctor feels that this is the most likely scenario. I’m just happy to have some answers!! I am so thankful for all of my doctors and everyone who has prayed for me during the past year in regards to all of this!

I should probably shower…FIRST SHOWER IN THE APARTMENT!!!

The trail we’re going on has waterfalls and a place to swim and I’m so excited! I’ve actually missed hiking and being outdoorsy since I’ve been home from camp. But hey, I get to go back on Thursday!!

Our first group of campers arrived yesterday afternoon! They are such an amazing group of kids, and I’ve already fallen in love with them!! My cabin is full of adorable girls, and they are just so excited for camp. The first day has been awesome, and every moment I am reminded why I love being a counselor.

Again, WRITE TO ME!!

Hannah Gutman
General Delivery
C/O MAD Camp
Orkney Springs, VA 22845

And in response to my last camp post…

I’ll write you!

I have very limited internet access, but I can usually get on at least once a week. BUT…YOU SHOULD WRITE ME LETTERS!

Hannah Gutman
General Delivery
C/O MAD Camp
Orkney Springs, VA 22845

If you give me a return address, I’ll write you back! :)

I love spending the day with my girls. Cracker Barrel, shopping, and tanning/pool time = pure happiness.

I was worried she’d disown me, because she had always wanted me to be this big academic person. But she asked me last night about what I wanted to do with my life and I just blurted out everything. She was so supportive, and had all sorts of questions and actually seemed interested in helping me figure out a plan. I’m just so relieved that I won’t have to move to a big city all on my own without her blessing. If you know anything about my mother and our relationship, you know this is a huge deal!! I’m so happy. And excited. So yeah.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry if you thought my posts or tweets have been about you. There may have been one slightly concerning you, but I was mostly confused about things I had heard. I deleted it later, because i didnt want to hurt your feelings, so im sorry if it did. I’ve had a lot of family problems and issues with friends from school and everything, so that’s usually what I vent about on here and twitter. I have no problem with you. Honestly, if you were to come to me and ask to start over, with a clean slate, and be friends again and just forget the past I would say yes. In a heartbeat. That probably won’t happen, and I understand that, but there’s no reason that we can’t be civil and acknowledge each other if we run into each other. There’s no reason for you to go out of your way to avoid walking past me. You don’t even have to say hello. I don’t even know if you’ll ever read this, but I needed to get it out. And I doubt you would give me the chance to talk to you in person. So this is me putting myself out there. If you ever want to talk, you know how to reach me. You were too big a part of my life for too long for me to permanently shut that door. Now the ball is in your court.

I’m sure it will wear off at some point, but for now I love beings independent, meeting new people, and just not having that stress in my life anymore. Even great relationships involve time, effort, and stress. Being single just doesn’t! :)

Which is ironic because I don’t remember the last time I got my nails done.

And I’m loving every minute of it!

After eleven years, I finally got my gold!